So yeah... its been a long while since i've had a REAL meal....
I'm so darn tired and hungry....
but .... food just doesn't want to stay down....
HELP ME... please....
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ducky called me ytd night.. while i was walking around my neighbourhood...
fierce sia she ... ban me from smoking lololololol....
"i suppose the cause of it is the solution"
yes ducky.... i do know the cause of it....
and yes like i said.. "im screwed then"....
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i've been getting really good advice from ppl younger than me...
seriously...
Been Around the world so many times
If Only you could see my mind,
I watched my secret heaven turn to hell...
Faith alone has guided me,
All the things i put me through
I wouldn't wish my head on you
You'll never know what's going on inside
Just another lonely broken hero,
Running out of faith and open reason,
I'm running out of time
what does this mean? it just means that i dont wanna burden other people with my problems.....
u know... if u trouble your friends with your problems,
soon enough you wont have any...
i dont want to say goodbye....
to ANY of them... choir ppl.... new friends.... CO ppl...
i dont want to say goodbye....
after i lost Sierra,..... i couldn't take it anymore...
well for one ... cos i was the one that made her go away forever....
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i never wanted to open my heart up to anyone...
i never wanted to share any of my feelings....
but why...... why ....
THAT NIGHT...
why.... i must have snapped........
why.... it wasn't supposed to be that way......
my feelings for you.. should never have been known....
for her sake it should have been secret.....
but.. the past cannot be changed...
what has been done .. cannot be undone....
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for now, as she requests for more time...
ill have to give it to her...
cos i have no idea what is going on....
its affecting her too ....
thats what she said...
but what is it?
i have no idea..........
im kinda confused....
for now..... ill just have to deal with the hunger....
its not like i can do anything about it..
since the only things that stay down are... Redbull and Plain Water...
sigh.....
i hope.... i get better...
Bit said its all in my head.....
i think so too...
but i guess it seems that my head is stronger than my body...
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if u are starving, do not go to sg river, you'll imagine SEAFOOD floating on the water... hahahhaa XD